Family

Ok so this goes with the blog i wrote the other day i believe it was called... "take a hint"...

You messaged me about my pregnancy and asking how far along i was. I feel that is non of your business, so i replied by telling you to let it go and leave me and my family alone. You replied with "like it or not you are my family to". I told you that we are not and will never be family because i have my family, and that i dont think the bloodline matters when it comes to family because it all comes down to who is there for you when you need them. You gave me this big speech about how you even found out about me and my siblings and about how i was wrong for stating my own opinion on what family is to me!

Do not question my opinion on family, i am very family oriented and family means the world to me and i would do anything for my family!

My opinion on family may be different than others because i am adopted so i feel i have a different view on family.

To me family isnt about the blood that is running through my veins, but the people who are there for me. The people who gave me a home. The people who made sure me and my siblings were safe. The people who made sure we had food and clothing and plenty of love. The people who made sure we knew what a family was. The people who gave us a mom and dad, siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, pets, and friends! The ones who went to every sporting event. And was there to comfort us through hard times. And praise us for the good. To me family is much more than a bloodline! Its about the people who care!

Say what you will, call me stupid or whatever you please... but do not tell me i am wrong for feeling the way i do about my family.

You said i should give you a second chance, but the two times i have talked to you, you have done nothing but tell me im wrong for feeling a certain way, while you continue push push and push! You also told me i was very mean to you. Well you cannot push your way into someones life esp if they do not want you there. And honestly i feel i have made it rather clear that i dont! Harsh? maybe but its the truth. And if Im so mean, then just do what i said and drop it, let it go, leave me and my family alone! K, thanks. Bye!

P.s. after posting this blog you will probably be blocked due to the fact that i am not going to allow you to sit there and tell me i am wrong about my family! And im just simply tired of hearing from you!

God Bless!

take a hint

Soooo.. here it is. 

You have messaged me for years claiming to be my half sister and i have ignored you for most of them, til finally you messaged me saying i hurt your feelings by not replying. I said something like well youd think one would get a hint that one doesnt want to talk to you after messaging and messaging and never getting a reply. Well CLEARLY you didnt!

It started on myspace you would comment on just about every single picture of mine, every bulletin and status, along with your other daily messages. You got upset because i called you creepy, Because clearly you are! I mean come on you even messaged me on every month and year anniversary that me and my husband (boyfriend at the time) had, and saying that you and your boyfriend had the same anniversary. I NEVER REPLIED, never even gave you the time of day until September 7th 2010 on facebook when you messaged me saying i was leading you on. Explain to me how someone not replying for years is leading you on!?

We got into it you called me a know it all teenage bitch, and i said you were just a bitch! I constantly told you to leave my family alone and to stop messaging me. But the messages kept coming then finally i had made you mad enough that you asked me if i had some stupid teeny bopper concert to go to and told me to leave you alone or youd get me for harassment! which wouldnt have gotten you anywhere seeing how i had gotten daily messages from you for years and never replied and i had told you multiple times to leave my family alone...  and it resulted in you blocking me on facebook. i could not have been more relieved! 

Now in 2012 you unblock me and try to send me a friend request and you message me saying you heard i was living in tn now and that im pregnant. Then you ask if i would like to go to lunch with you sometime when you move here. i replied with "honestly i am not going to "lead you on" like you claim i did last time...im just saying that most likely will never happen!". I told you i did not want the added drama that i knew you would bring and that i had my baby and husband and job and family and friends to worry about! and you just kept saying i was so mean to you and you thought we should give it second chance because it could be fun. HA! Uhm what are you some kind of stupid or something!? Like for real, seriously right now you have got to be kidding me! Your making yourself look crazy! 

Yea you are not the only one who had messaged me for years from the biological "family". My biological "mother" has also...and to make that stop just like i had with you i finally replied i told her though it would never change anything she could give me her story she has been wanting to give. She ended up going back to jail mid way through so she has recently started to finish telling me. Now so my other siblings knew i sent it (her story) to them as well. And i had told my mom and dad this also so it wasnt like i was going behind their back! My biological "father" had tried a time or two but since i never replied he gave up.  

but wow really!? 

anyyyyyyways!! glad thats off my chest! 

God Bless!! 

Growing up

Honestly...Its hard being grown ups, but lately things have been great! Robs parents came down for the weekend, we all had a great time! I was so glad they had been able to make it down, for i know how much rob was missing them!! He got guy time with his dad while i hung out with his mom. and he got time with the both of them while i was at work. It kind of sucked, me having work while they were here but it gave him time to spend with just his parents! Hes needed and deserved that for a while now!

Things with the hubby and i have been great, we have not been fighting, we're not letting little things get to us as much anymore. We seem to be on the same page a lot more now! i love going with him to the store and hearing him say lets look at baby stuff and him pointing out all of the things he likes, most for a boy of course while im looking at all the girly things! i cant wait to find out what we are having, as im 13 weeks at the moment!

The only thing thats been a pain in our sides lately has been the fact that our lease is up and everywhere with in our budget is full! We spent all day Monday driving around checking out apartments close to post and within our budget. With a baby on the way we def have no room for spending over our budget! So while in a panic as to what to do, Rob calls housing on post to see what number we are and how fast we could be moved in to on post housing. They said we are number 111 and he asked how long would that be til we would be able to move in? She said end of April i think. He told her that we have searched just about everywhere and cannot find a place to live for when our lease is up in march and that i am pregnant. She told him she would see what she could do and she said there was one opening as of today and he asked how soon we could move in and i believe she had said end of  march which works out great since thats around when our lease is up! So i believe rob goes in today to sign some papers. Hopefully all goes well and nothing else comes up!

Fingers Crossed!!


God Bless!

The Vow

The other night my husband took me to see the movie "The Vow" such a strong and powerful Movie. Although it had a different ending than i was expecting, it was still a great well put together movie with a lot of meaning! I continued to think about the characters and what they had gone through together, for the rest of that night and most of the next day. Wow, i never though a movie could have had that much of an impact on me. But this one did. 


That couple had their world flipped upside down, and though it took a while they still made it through. It proves that if you truly love someone you can make it through anything no matter how difficult it may be. It shows that their is hope for love. 


Honestly it made me think about all the little things in life that i have worried about over looking a the big picture and the positive side of things! 


This is a quote in the movie that proves in a different way that love can last. - "I chose to stay with him for all the things he's done right; not the one thing he's done wrong. I chose to forgive him."  -Rita Thornton.


And here is one from when Leo had to walk away from Paige the love of his life, trusting and hopng that she will remember or at least try to remember and come back to him. - “How do you look at the girl you love and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?” – Leo


What I'm trying to get at is that true love can over come anything, and don't sweat the small stuff because your wasting to much of your time being unhappy when you could very easily,  just be happy! I don't know there's just so much to take in from this movie! Its very eye opening. 

Their were parts in the movie when I got teary eyes and i told the hubby of this after the movie and he said a couple parts of it had got to him too! So i know it was a good movie for the two of us to see together! 




If you haven't seen this movie then you must! 






God Bless! 

Moe

Well last night my puppy got a knew home. Rob and i sat down and talked about it and realized that we could not afford our little pup while trying to save for baby love. Not only that but with having a pup it was limiting where we can live, and with a pet making our rent even more. We are just unable to give him the time an attention he needs since we both have jobs! Hes to hyper to be kept in a little apt he needs a yard and a family that is home more than we are! So that is exactly what we gave him. A lady had contacted me about the add i put up about Moe on campbellyardsales, she said hes sons birthday was this saturday and that he would love to get a puppy for his birthday! Not only that but she said she had a huge yard and other dogs for him to play with and that she was a k9 handler with the state and FEMA. She assured us not to worry because he would be very well taken care of! Moe got to take all of his stuff with him, toys, food, food dish, collar, leash, bath supplies, flea meds. They did forget to take his pillow and blanket so she is stopping by sometime today to get them. That is the one thing i wanted to make sure he went with, he sleeps with them every night so i didnt want him to leave with out them! She texted me last night and said her son was soooo happy when he saw Moe and that Moe was loving all of the new attention he was getting. She said the two had not stopped playing since he got there, which made me happy to hear. but sad at the same time, i was quite upset when i got home and didnt see moe waiting at the window and i wasnt greeted by him at the door. I appreciate that she later texted me letting me know how he was doing and saying that we did a great job with him and how much she appreciated us for giving her an awesome gift to give her son on his birthday! I hope they take good care of him, and i hope he adapts to the new home and people and animals! <3

We love and miss you Moe! 

be good!! 

God Bless!