on the bright side..

at 8 o'clock this morning i got a call from a number i did not know. i almost did not answer because it was early and i didnt know who it was, but something told me i should. i answered the phone and it was a lady from the clarksville athletic club nursery, asking me if i was still interested in the job i had applied for. i told her that i was indeed still interested so she explained a little about the job and asked me to come in tomorrow at 12 for an interview. my first thought -- YAY things are finally starting to look up for me! after that i went back to sleep for about an hour or so. got out of bed and realized what all i promised the hubby i would get done today, and how little motivation i had to do so! but i knew i had to get it done, whether i promised the hubby or not! so needless to say i have had a rather productive day.

first things first
-the typical morning routine - feed fish take out dog, give dog food and fresh water
1. cleaned dog hair, along with mine out of tub
2. took a shower
3. cleaned the sink and counter top in the bathroom
4. cleaned mirror
5. cleaned the most dreaded area of the bathroom...the toilet
6. made bed
7. clean out and straitened up the closet
8. put away clean clothes
9. straitened and cleaned the spare room
10. dusted the tv stand
11. washed down coffee table and end tables
12. put dishes in the dish washer
13. scrubbed stove top
14. washed off counters
15. cleaned off and washed kitchen table
16. mopped kitchen floor
17. cleaned out fridge
18. vacuumed the floors
19. scrubbed the inside of the microwave
20. in process of doing laundry.
21. still have some time to myself, i think im going to color. (hey adults can do that too ya know!)

and at 2:30 this after noon i got a call from another number i did not know, and once again did not answer..but like i said before something told me i should. it ended up being the tanning salon that i applied at the other day and i have an interview there thursday at 1:45.

it sure looks like things are looking up to me!
and i sure hope those interview go well! i would definitely like one of those jobs, if not BOTH!

wow, for no motivation i sure as hell got a lot done!  i am proud of what i have accomplished today!

perfection is my enemy

lately ive been rather down. and rather nit picky about myself. i have many flaws, and lately all i see are imperfections. truth is, ive always been that way..it just seems to be happening more lately. there are definitely things i would change about myself if i could. there are certain things about my self that i am very self-conscience of, and here recently ive been letting those things get the best of me. now im not writing this for any sort of pity from the ones who read this, i am writing it for myself. because writing is how i get things of my chest and how i deal with certain things. writing is what helps me cope. some days i see pass my flaws, because i know that everyone has them, but other days..flaws is all i see. i tend to be one with very little self confidence, and i seem to let things get to me more often then i should. when i have days like these i try to occupy my time with better things, like hangout with friends and such. but lately nothing seems to work. just been in one of those slumps, that i cant seem to get out of.  im trying to get a job, so i have have better more important things to occupy my time with, and hang out with friends so that i am not sitting at home by myself while the husband is at work. speaking of the husband, i dont want everyone to get me wrong and to think hes not there for me, because he is, he always is. he's always there to comfort me at times like these's even when im on the verge of tears and trying not to let him know something is bothering me, and hes always supportive of what i do. he's always telling me im beautiful and sweet things like that (even in the mornings when im a grumpy hot-mess!) i know him along with family and friends always be there for me no matter what, and will always pick me up when im down! 

and for that, i thank you all! 

today

this morning i was so excited as i got ready to be a "model" for a photo shoot by Chelle's Photography. she had originally asked me to be a model for her, because she had a mess up on weekends and didnt book any sessions for this weekend. i had asked her if it was okay that my husband tag along. she said that was not a problem at all and that if he wanted she could shoot some photos with him and i together. im all for new photos of the hubby and i, so of course i couldnt refuse. by what i had seen on her page she was a very talented photographer. before today i had not yet met michelle, so i was a little nervous, as was the hubby. when we got to where we were suppose to meet up i could tell she was a pretty easy going lady, and with the hubby being funny and very easy going it definitively helped calm any nerves. she did some photos of just me, then a couple with the hubby and i both, then back to some with just me, ending with more photos of the hubby and i. we sure had a blast!
Sabrina & Robert Sneak Peek 

if you want to see the others click the link above! 

who's in the kitchen?

at the moment the hubby is in the kitchen and what do i smell, PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES! sure smells good! i also hear him doing the dishes, weird thing is..he hasnt yet asked me to come in to help. either hes mad or in a very helpful mood! kind of nervous since i dont know which one it is. all i know is those peanut butter cookies sure smell good!

well ive been sort of what i call a "grump-ass" today. the hubby and i both took a Tylenol PM last night, probably around like 12-1 o'clock-ish...BAD IDEA..doing so made us sleep in til 12:45. i am a grump when i get woken up early, and when i sleep in too late.. it puts me in one of those "there goes my day" sort a moods.

so i may have angered the hubby with my mood, maybe this is why he is cleaning and making cookies!?
BUT can i really complain!? i mean really, the kitchen is clean, AND there are peanut butter cookies!

well its COOKIE TIME!

..it must be in the water..

so everyone around me seems to have kids, be getting pregnant, having babies, wanting to have babies. it must be in the water! but the truth is, i was BORN with baby fever, i was always carrying around baby dolls, and playing house (i always wanted to be the mommy but my sister wouldnt let me..because SHE WAS THE OLDEST.) and when i played barbies, i was always the mom, or the babysitter! i also loved when my parents did foster care when i was younger because i always got to be around babies and always got to help my mom out, with giving the babies a bath and changing their diapers and feeding them, I LOVED IT. i have also been babysitting for quite some years now! i just love kids! (: so yea, i'd like to say i was born with baby fever, and all of this is only making it worse!

ahhhhh!

anyways, congrats to all you new and old mommies, and to all you mommy to-be's!
<3

ego boost

so a couple days ago i did a photo shoot for my friends who are starting a photography business, i was so honored to help them out! it was a blast! they are both so fun to be around and so very energetic, i don't think there was ever a dull moment during the whole 2 hours or so.

one being my friend MELISSA - with  Wells Photography ,

the other friend being ALYSA - with Aly Marie Photography

they are both clearly very talented at what they do!

well today as i was on my facebook i got a message from a lady saying she had talked to my friend alysa earlier this morning about a promotion she had going on this weekend for a free mini session, she wants to practice a few poses and see how they look. she went on to say how she thought this weekend was memorial day weekend therefore she did not book and sessions, come to find out its not this weekend. which is why she was offering the promotion. she also told me that she told alysa that i had some intreging eyes and if i were to enter she would be more than glad to shoot with me.

now of course this offer went strait to my head (haha only kidding)! but of course i couldn't refuse! i love helping others! and truth is i was going to contact her like her promotion on her photography page had asked, but the more i thought about it the slimmer i thought my chances would be. who would of thought!

ive always gotten comments on my eyes, whether it be people making fun of them and telling me to "close my eyes" or saying their "too big for my face", or whether they are complimenting them saying they are pretty, or love how big they are, or saying they wish they had my big puppy dog eyes. truth is i LOVE my big eyes!

excited for the weekend!

shout out;

heres a shout out to all haters; sorry you couldn't phase me..♥ 


so lets just say this hasn't been my week, or should i say my month? a lot of petty ridiculous drama has gone on, and it needed to end. and that is just what my friend did, she ended it. she removed herself from the situation - like any mature adult should. i give her props for that! truth is the people causing the drama were suppose to be friends, friends don't say the things they said. or do the things they did, i guess some people are never who they seem. but i guess no matter what you should never let people like that come between you and another friend. my friend is a great person shes never done me wrong, been there for me since i got here. she's been the only one who truly understands everything ive done and am still doing. we have a lot of the same interests, hobbies and watched the same tv shows. our husbands are good friends and that just made it all the better! and i would never want to lose a friend like that. 


everything that is going on, makes me miss home. makes me miss my family makes me miss my dogs, makes me miss robs dog and family. makes me miss a specific friend that i would drive around with all over town, that i would sing real loud with in the car, that i would go to taco bell runs at any hour with, that i would say stupid things around and not even care! she's one of the only people that i know i have always been able to trust, other than my mom. it makes me miss the little things in life. like playing softball with a bunch of girls that i didnt like, but with a team that i loved. and getting mad and being able to walk away, go outside off on my own and walking anywhere from 25 mins to and hour and a half and knowing exactly where i am.  but i will always have that, i know their all just a phone call away, at the end of the day. 


i am so lucky to have a husband who is there for me. who names off all my friends when im upset and say i dont have any. who wipes away my tears when i cry. who says goofy little things to make me laugh. who reassures me that no matter how many people walk away he will always be there. who tickles me and makes me laugh so hard i almost pee my pants. who i have a fight with but every time about five minutes after any fight he's there making up for it. and doing the next pain in the ass thing that makes me laugh even tho i want to stay mad.  


so truth is, ive got two great friends here, and amazing husband and an awesome family and friend back home. and i wouldnt trade them for the world. no matter how much drama there is. or how many fights we have. i know  they will always be there for me, as will i for them! 

never take a person for granted 

hold every person close to your heart

cause you might wake up one day & realize 

that you've lost a diamond while you were  

too busy collecting stones. 

truth is,

I have come to realize that there are few people in this world you can trust. i have trust issues to begin with therefore it makes it hard to trust anyone, but there is a handful people that i trust completely , while others must earn it! I have also come to realize that a few friends from back home weren't my friends at all. Whether it was jealousy, envy, hatred, this i may never know. and honestly i dont care to. i may speak my mind to much when i shouldnt and i may be too quite when i need to speak, but thats who i am. i have always been told "stay true to you, and trust no one" i never knew how true that statement could be. also when becoming an army wife one of the first things i was told was, not to trust other army wives, and not to believe a word that others say unless i hear it from my husband himself. i have tried to do just that, when i hear something i ask my husband first because to me HE is the one i should be hearing it from in the first place. although i have found trust in a few other army wives, we hang out and we talk just about everyday. i know i could count on them for anything, others not so much.  truth is, it isnt just military wives you cant trust, its almost everyone in this world whose done you wrong, whose broke your heart, whose turned their back, whose walked away, whose given up, whose never there, whose stabbed you in the back, whose lied, whose cheated whose said wrong, whose done wrong, whose fake, who doesnt care. they must earn trust to receive trust.

truth is, i am thankful for the friends and family i have and can count on, for id be lost without them!

‎"It happens to everyone as they grow up ... you find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. And so you keep the memories, but you find yourself moving." 

SISTERS are the BEST kinds of FRIENDS!

sisters are here for a visit! we've been busy, school shopping, movie nights, swimming, softball practices and games, hair coloring, more swimming, bowling and even more swimming. and some more softball and school shopping for the little sister!

having a sister is like having a best friend

that you cant get rid of.

you know that whatever you do 

they will always be there!

i love that my sisters and i have so much in common! i seriously dont know what i would do without them! yes we fight and get on each others nerves but hey thats what sisters are for! im so glad they have came down to visit! i really wish my brother could have came down as well, sure do miss him! but i know ill see him soon! my siblings have always been there for me, and i know they always will, as will i for them! truth is, id be lost without them! 

life as an Army Wife.

some may think that living the life as an army wife is easy. but its really not, its long days with out your husband, trying to do all you can to pass the time. its long nights alone, unable to sleep because he's not home. its years away from when you'll see your loved one next. its children being away from their parents, not knowing when mommy or daddy will be home again. its knowing that in a seconds time life as you know it could drastically change. its knowing what bills you have and that the pay check is just barely going to cover them. its being there for other wives and helping them through the same rough times. being an army wife is about knowing all of this and more, but being strong enough to stick it through and stand by your soldier, and support them in everything they do!!

‎

i wear no uniform, no dress blues or army greens, but i am in the military in the ranks rarely seen.
i have no ranks on my shoulders, salutes i do not give. 
but the military world is a place i have grown to live. 
i am not in the chain of commands, orders i do not get but my soldier is the one who does, this is cant forget.
i am not the one who fires weapons or who puts my life on the line. 
but my job is just as tough because i am the one who is left behind. 


a friend of mine had this on her facebook, i thought it fit perfectly with what i was blogging about today!

truth is, i wouldn't trade the life i live for anything in this world! is it hard? of course, but no one said life was easy! and i chose this life for me, and i couldn't be happier! <3

i am proud to be standing by my hero, my love, MY SOLDIER!

photography

some of my photography. 

melissa and playboy

abandoned barn  

victoria and raygen

cool looking tree

melissa and kami

dogtags and heart/key hole necklace

river

truth is im just more comfortable with a camera in hand!

a friend and i are thinking about becoming photographers,
this is just a little of my work! 

its two hearts and one dream

its two hearts 

And one dream

I wouldn't trade it for anything

And i ask the lord every night

For just another day in paradise<3

sometimes I wish I knew a better way to let my husband how much I love him and how much I need and appreciate him. sometimes I feel like words are not enough, and actions don't say enough. I've always been told actions speak louder than words. in some ways yes, but others I'm not so sure. My husband is always there for me, supports me, takes care of me when I'm sick, and catches me when I fall. You all may think well that is what a husband is for. And your right, but some are not there for their wives like mine, some don't care, and some just don't try. Now don't get me wrong I am not saying my husband is perfect..there's no such thing. In fact he may be one of the most imperfect people i know, as am I..but that is what i love about him most. He has flaws but powers through them! To me he is one of the most beautiful people i know. He's real. He speaks his mind. He has a temper. He is one of the most loving people I have ever met. He looks at the world in a different way then most. Truth is we're not perfect, but we fight sometimes, but at the end of the day  we're always there for one another, and we love each other!  <3

truth is, GOD GAVE ME YOU!

god gave me you: Dave Barnes
I've been a walking heartache

I've made a mess of me
The person that I've been lately
Ain't who I wanna be
But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm blows through
And I need you


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I've lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you


There's more here than what we feel
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely, can somehow fall for me
You'll always be love's great martyr
I'll be the flattered fool
And I need you


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I've lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you


On my own, I'm only half of what I could be
I can't do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I could never undo


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt


God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I've lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you
Gave me you

so to my dear husband; you are my best friend, my rock, my strength,
my everything and i would be lost without you! thank you 
so much for everything you do for me! 
i love you with all my heart! 
<3

dinner for two

I have decided that tonight I will be making a romantic dinner for both my husband and I. I have always wanted a cute little candle light dinner. I also thought it would be a nice way to start off my husbands work week, with a nice romantic, relaxing candle light dinner, followed by a bubble bath and a back rub (for him of course!)! We are also going to dress up for our dinner, that might sound silly but this is something we've never done, so why not go all out!? Now I just have to decide what I am going to make! Wish me luck! (:

there's a first time for everything

Never have I quit something, I have started it and not finished before I ever got on the team and before a commitment was ever made. This is why it upsets me so much to say I quit. I quit something that gave me confidence, something I knew I was good at and something I have done for 11 years of my life. I quit something that made my family so proud of me and my abilities. The team was not a team! Therefore I quit. Winners never quit, and quitters never win, so it looks like Im a winner at a losing game! 

the end. 

Melissa

When moving to Tennessee, I was nervous I wouldn't meet a friend that I could trust and enjoy hanging out with. I met an Army Wife or two, they were NOTHING like me, didn't have a thing in common - besides the fact that we were are Army Wives. I met Melissa in March or April, I don't remember which but we hit it off pretty well. Im always shy at first, I tried to set that aside as much as possible, because I knew I needed someone to hang out with and talk to, who could understand where I was coming from. Melissa and I started hanging out, going shopping, swimming, watching tv, job hunting and now we play softball together (which Im sure she hates me for, but so far shes sticking with it!) She's there for me when I need her! I couldn't ask for a better friend!

Friendship

There is a miracle 

of Friendship

that dwells within the heart,

and you don't know

how it happens

or where it gets its start...

But the happiness

it brings you 

always gives a special lift, 

and you realize 

that Friendship 

is Gods most perfect gift!

~ Author Unknown 

cleaning time

Well I've let this place go for a couple days now, and I think its about time i do something about it. I have loads of laundry to do, dishes to put away, floors to be vacuumed and coupons to cut. Just got done editing/uploading my photos so guess i have no choice but to start my cleaning. 

 Those are just a few of my recent uploads! I absolutely love taking pictures, I guess I'm just more comfortable with a camera in hand! Well i guess its time I get going and do some cleaning before my game tonight. Hopefully we do a little better than we did last game! <3

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I have created this blog, to simply rant and rave about my day. Along with the ups and downs and highlights of my life! As of now i have nothing much to say, so stay tuned for more (: